[ In response to her weak joke, Gorou continues, telling her more of his feelings and explaining his reasons behind deciding to tell her despite his fear, and all Kokomi can do is stare at him, feeling more and more helpless for each word that passes his lips. This is meant to be the easy part, is the miserable thought at the front of her mind. This is the part where she knows and her choices just became so much easier, her paths all laid out by planning and strategy...
But he is afraid of rejection, and what if she makes it worse by allowing herself to believe in feelings that she somehow has misunderstood?
Her heart feels as if it is in her throat. Kokomi's eyes drop from the earnest, sincere gaze fixed on her, her hand coming up to the ribbon tied at her breast, hovering just above her Vision as if it will somehow slow the fluttering panic of her heart. Her fingers are trembling. ]
General. I... [ Her eyes flicker towards the magazine, and for a moment she considers picking it up, showing him the letter she wrote by way of explanation. The coward's way out, as it were.
She is no coward. But she should err on the side of caution, for the sake of his feelings. ]
Your observations were not incorrect. I was experiencing feelings of jealousy... not only toward Miss Shinobu, but also whenever I thought about your feelings toward— um, that girl. [ Oh, the irony, to have felt such jealousy toward herself without even being aware of it! ] To be honest, I have thought about that a lot since that night, those feelings, and... [ She pauses for breath, her eyes fixed back on the floor of the small, comfortable cave. ] ...And I have reached the conclusion that I may also hold feelings for you. Only I am not entirely sure. I have no wish to hurt you...
[ Once again, she trails off. What does she say from here? Every single strategy she planned out ended with her either telling him or not, and now she's told him and she's realizing very quickly that she should have been more thorough in her planning, should have worked out exactly what she needed to do in this moment...
She finally looks up at him, the anxiety no doubt written clear all over her face. ]
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But he is afraid of rejection, and what if she makes it worse by allowing herself to believe in feelings that she somehow has misunderstood?
Her heart feels as if it is in her throat. Kokomi's eyes drop from the earnest, sincere gaze fixed on her, her hand coming up to the ribbon tied at her breast, hovering just above her Vision as if it will somehow slow the fluttering panic of her heart. Her fingers are trembling. ]
General. I... [ Her eyes flicker towards the magazine, and for a moment she considers picking it up, showing him the letter she wrote by way of explanation. The coward's way out, as it were.
She is no coward. But she should err on the side of caution, for the sake of his feelings. ]
Your observations were not incorrect. I was experiencing feelings of jealousy... not only toward Miss Shinobu, but also whenever I thought about your feelings toward— um, that girl. [ Oh, the irony, to have felt such jealousy toward herself without even being aware of it! ] To be honest, I have thought about that a lot since that night, those feelings, and... [ She pauses for breath, her eyes fixed back on the floor of the small, comfortable cave. ] ...And I have reached the conclusion that I may also hold feelings for you. Only I am not entirely sure. I have no wish to hurt you...
[ Once again, she trails off. What does she say from here? Every single strategy she planned out ended with her either telling him or not, and now she's told him and she's realizing very quickly that she should have been more thorough in her planning, should have worked out exactly what she needed to do in this moment...
She finally looks up at him, the anxiety no doubt written clear all over her face. ]
I am... not sure what to do or say next.