[ his brow furrows at the force with which kaveh punches his fist into his desk, hard enough that a couple of things topple off unceremoniously towards the ground. this wasn't exactly the response he'd been expecting - on the contrary, alhaitham had thought that the dismissal of the illustrious lord sangemah bay would probably bring relief to someone who constantly complained about their suffering under her scheming.
with a stilted sigh, the scribe leans back in his chair. it had been some time since they'd had a row that had come anyhwere close to this explosive, certainly not since they'd started exploring a relationship together. there's something nostalgic about the full force of kaveh's frustration being unleashed at him, and it's not a particularly pleasant nostalgia either. ]
Perhaps it wasn't my responsibility, no.
[ after all, the scribe was probably the last person anyone would think of to go out of his way to rectify someone else's issues at an expense to himself. but despite the time that had passed between them since they'd starting dating, there were still anomalies that circulated in alhaitham's mind; hypotheses he had to test to make certain that their relationship was actually real.
in a deeper sentiment, one he'd never really reveal and is barely even aware of himself: to make sure that it was actually him that his partner had interest in. the scribe isn't stupid, after all - he knows that he's not particularly sociable (because he has no interest in it), he knows he's not as likable (because he never tries). he also knows better than most that kaveh, of all people, has the strongest sense of obligation out of anyone else on the planet.
what if he'd just been staying in their house because there was no other option, thanks to the crippling debt? what if this had only eventuated because he'd been forced into close quarters with alhaitham due to necessity, like some sort of stockholm syndrome?
being an overt analytical thinker often had its downsides, and these trailing threads that stuck out from the otherwise idyllic tapestry of their relationship were one of them. ]
I'd have thought you wanted to be free of the debt. After all, you talk enough about how it hinders you - impacts you. Was I wrong?
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with a stilted sigh, the scribe leans back in his chair. it had been some time since they'd had a row that had come anyhwere close to this explosive, certainly not since they'd started exploring a relationship together. there's something nostalgic about the full force of kaveh's frustration being unleashed at him, and it's not a particularly pleasant nostalgia either. ]
Perhaps it wasn't my responsibility, no.
[ after all, the scribe was probably the last person anyone would think of to go out of his way to rectify someone else's issues at an expense to himself. but despite the time that had passed between them since they'd starting dating, there were still anomalies that circulated in alhaitham's mind; hypotheses he had to test to make certain that their relationship was actually real.
in a deeper sentiment, one he'd never really reveal and is barely even aware of himself: to make sure that it was actually him that his partner had interest in. the scribe isn't stupid, after all - he knows that he's not particularly sociable (because he has no interest in it), he knows he's not as likable (because he never tries). he also knows better than most that kaveh, of all people, has the strongest sense of obligation out of anyone else on the planet.
what if he'd just been staying in their house because there was no other option, thanks to the crippling debt? what if this had only eventuated because he'd been forced into close quarters with alhaitham due to necessity, like some sort of stockholm syndrome?
being an overt analytical thinker often had its downsides, and these trailing threads that stuck out from the otherwise idyllic tapestry of their relationship were one of them. ]
I'd have thought you wanted to be free of the debt. After all, you talk enough about how it hinders you - impacts you. Was I wrong?