[ One thing Kaveh has never allowed himself to do is push into the thoughts of others to find their secrets. There are vampires who do, who use their mental powers to unearth the thoughts and feelings of everyone around them and use them to their advantage; it's never been him, not from the moment he figured out how to properly control the power he wields. He feels echoes, sometimes, whispers of particularly strong emotions or reactions, but that's it. Anything more and he'd certainly already know of the other's feelings, and of the depths of the tragedy of his past.
But he can certainly share his own thoughts, just as he can feel the heat of Jing Yuan's reaction to them. His hair is yanked, and the moan on his lips is dark and heated, his blood-awakened pulse thrumming hard in response to the sensation of the other plunging deep into him. His lips part, trembling around the words as he mindlessly demands more.
He reaches between them to take his own cock in hand, stroking in the same rhythm as the thrusts that rock his whole body, and his free hand moves to curl into Jing Yuan's hair in turn, holding him close as he bites and sucks and marksβ
and Kaveh has to bite back the urge to beg for still more bites, to tell Jing Yuan to give him something to brag about, so instead he closes his eyes, groans into the dim of his room, panting and breathing and trying to find the right thing to say. ]
Harder, fuck me harder, Iβ fuck I'm close againβ
[ that kaveh never probes his mind and heart is one of the many things that jing yuan loves about him. so many vampires can be so.. sneaky and invasive, manipulative, using anything and everything to keep the upper hand, but kaveh isn't like that. he respects jing yuan, respects his privacy, and has never probed any deeper than jing yuan has been comfortable with. it's admirable, to have a power that must be so tempting to use, but to never employ it, for the sake of others.
being let into kaveh's thoughts however, especially right now, is a wild, incredible experience - feeling his pleasure, his desire and need.. it only fuels jing yuan's libido, making him hunger for more and more.
harder, kaveh says, and jing yuan obliges, his abdomen flexing as he fucks him harder and faster, plunging brutally deep with every thrust of his hips. as he grows closer to the edge, jing yuan's knot swells slowly again, catching on kaveh's rim until every thrust gets more and more difficult to push in and pull out of, his body attempting to lock them together. this time, he won't pull out. kaveh wanted this, asked for this, and jing yuan wants to give it to him. ]
[ this time, it's jing yuan who tumbles first. with a low, animal growl, jing yuan's ears pin back, his body shuddering as his hips jerk forward, the headboard slamming the wall. he spills, hot and copious into kaveh, filling him up completely with wave after wave of sticky spend, his knot catching at last, locking him inside as his cock twitches helplessly, pumping kaveh full. ]
[ When Jing Yuan makes that final, hard thrust into him, Kaveh distantly hears the headboard crack, a long splinter through its whole as it slams into the wall with the force of their lovemaking. He does not, however, really register what it means for that sound to have happened, his mind entirely too caught up on the way the werewolf called for him before he came, the way he sounded calling Kaveh babyβ
(why does he like that so much?)
βand he all but howls with pleasure as the other's knot presses into him, finally locking the two of them together as the other's cum fills and fills and fills, leaving him breathlessly wailing as his own orgasm claims him in answer. He grabs Jing Yuan by the hair, pulling him harshly into a desperate, needy kiss as his own seed spills over his hand and abdomen, the blonde pumping himself a few more times to milk the last of it before he lets go.
He doesn't think he can talk just yet, his breath and voice little more than gasps and whimpers, so he lets his brain continue to do the work for him. ]
Will you call me baby again? [ Except his thoughts betray him and let that slip, leaving him laughing breathlessly against Jing Yuan's lips. ] Mm.. didn't mean to say that..
[ for the second time, kaveh comes for him, and jing yuan feels that incredible, delicious pulse of the vampire's body around his cock, massaging his full length, milking him for every last drop. it's almost too much, almost too intense, but jing yuan pushes through the storm of it, moaning low and deep as his hips twitch forward, pushing his knot deeper still. his body is on fire, his heart pounding against his ribs like an angry fist.
then kaveh's words drift through his mind again, and jing yuan gives a breathless laugh, soft and sweet, nudging their noses together. ]
I'll give you anything you want, baby.
[ he murmurs against kaveh's lips, his upper arms trembling with the effort of holding himself up. as much as he wants to rest against kaveh, he doesn't want to crush him, so jing yuan summons the last of his strength to roll them, pulling kaveh over top of him, their bodies still joined, still tied. both hands skim kaveh's back, and he tips his chin upward to meet his kisses, humming low and rough against kaveh's lips. ]
[ A shudder of pure, unadulterated delight runs down Kaveh's spine when Jing Yuan tells him that, calls him "baby" again and says he'd give anything he wanted, when he rolls them over so that he doesn't need to collapse on him, allowing the blonde to rest against him and press kisses into his mouth from above.
To the praise, he can only shake his head, laugh soft and sweet against the other's mouth as a warm flush spreads over his cheeks, pleased by the words even if he doesn't believe them. ]
Mm, nothing compared to you. You just... I.. it's never felt this way for me before.
[ Deep words, perhaps deeper than Kaveh even realizes he's speaking right now, fucked out and content as he is. He nuzzles his nose against Jing Yuan's, humming lowly to himself. ]
I really didn't take too much? I didn't realize how hungry I was.
[ He pauses, then, and has the grace to look ashamed as he breaks the kiss. ]
[ deep words indeed, ones that surprise jing yuan to hear. his brows lift a little, and his heart skips - what is kaveh saying? he isn't sure, he doesn't know, he wants to know, but before he can ask kaveh is kissing him again, softer this time, sweet and lingering, and jing yuan melts into it, swallowing up his lover's laughter. ]
Mmm.. I'm glad it was good for you.
[ he murmurs after a moment, though when kaveh pulls back to apologize, looking sheepish, jing yuan sighs and shakes his head. ]
Sorry for drinking from me? Don't be. You should be sorry for starving yourself in the first place.
[ one hand lifts, and jing yuan sifts his fingers through kaveh's hair, his expression softening with concern. his voice drops to something quieter. ]
[ His lips part, an explanation on themβ no, not sorry for drinking from him, sorry that he broke his promise yet againβ but Jing Yuan is already talking more, and there's something like scolding in his voice but it's soft and concerned and Kaveh finds himself pressing his face into the other's shoulders to hide the emotion that no doubt lights it, making his feelings all too clear. ]
I know. [ His voice is muffled against the skin. ] I just hate it.
[ And he knows that Jing Yuan knows it already, knows that he hates drinking from people, hates tampering with their memories until all they remember is the sex, how he lives in fear that he'll make the same mistake his creator made in drinking too far and too deepβ And he wouldn't let himself kill someone, so would he make the next mistake too and share his blood, create a childe whose very presence frightened him and wracked him with guilt? Would he flee, and leave that fledgling alone and scared, the same wayβ
He forces the thoughts out of his head, pressing in closer, letting his eyes close again, and when he speaks, it's to change the topic: ]
[ he is scolding, but it can't be helped, he cares for kaveh so deeply, so fully.. the idea of losing him to madness is terrifying. jing yuan has already lost too many who are precious to him, he cannot bring himself to allow kaveh to fall away from him, too. ]
Yes, we are. Please don't change the subject.
[ jing yuan sighs, his fingers slipping through kaveh's hair, free arm encircling his waist tightly. ]
I know you're afraid, Kaveh, but the more you starve yourself, the more likely the chance that you will do something you'll regret.
[ a starved vampire is a crazed vampire, more likely to accidentally kill, more likely to take too much. jing yuan holds him closely, and his words might be forward and stern, but his voice is soft. ]
[ His nose wrinkles as he's caught out changing the subject, a soft sigh on his lips as his eyes dart further away, as his face nuzzles in closer to the other's shoulder, not quite wanting to meet those serious gold and the care he knows they hold for him.
(But surely all he'd have to do is set one foot wrong and that care would disappear, would leave him alone again...)
He's not sure what he's going to say next, can't quite find the right words, but then Jing Yuan tells him, in that same soft voice, to come to him, and the vampire's eyes widen, Kaveh pushing himself a little more upright so he can look down at the otherβ
the movement though causes a jolt of pleasure where they're still tied together, and he groans instead of speaks, eyes closed and teeth pressing softly into his lip. ]
Mmn. Oh, fuck. Feelsβ sorry, not trying to change the subject, just... mm. Distracted.
[ kaveh isn't used to being knotted, it would seem, which bolsters jing yuan's pride a little. he's never fucked a werewolf, jing yuan was the first and only. it's foolish, he has no claim over kaveh, yet the idea still makes him happy. ]
We'll have to keep close for a little while longer.
[ how long the knot lasts is up to jing yuan's body, after all, it could be a few minutes, or the better part of an hour, and forcing it out would do damage to the both of them. still, the tug of kaveh's rim around his knot makes jing yuan's breath hitch, his hands sliding down to kaveh's hips, holding lightly. ]
[ A hint of color lights across Kaveh's cheeksβ another good sign that he's recently fedβ as the other urges him to be careful, settles hands on his hips to keep him from moving too much even as his sharp ears catch the slight hitch of Jing Yuan's breath. He chews on his lower lip, nods as he smiles at the other. ]
Yeah... yeah, I am. Just... really horny.
[ The proof is in the way he's still half-hard against both of their abdomens despite having orgasmed twice already. ]
Drinking your blood right after a full moon might not be the best idea.
[ Or is it, his brain wonders, exactly the best kind of idea? He doesn't say as much though, just lowers his head back down to Jing Yuan's shoulder, resting against him in silence for a moment or two before he starts to speak again. ]
Anyway I was gonna say that I'm not just going to drink from you whenever I'm hungry. It would put you at risk.
[ drinking from him during or near to a full moon is likely to bring with it all of the things that come with it - aggression and need, the instinct to mate, everything that jing yuan needs to hide himself away for. it's a lot to deal with, jing yuan can still remember his first full moons, how difficult it was to contend with, how intense it felt, and kaveh is now getting a little taste of it.
when kaveh leans in close again, jing yuan's arms slip around him, holding loosely at his waist as he enjoys the warm weight of kaveh against his chest. his tail thumps against the bed, betraying him. ]
Kaveh. I mean no offense, but I can fight you off easily should you attempt to take too much. You wouldn't be putting me at risk.
[ Kaveh can't see Jing Yuan's tail, but the thump of it against the bed is obvious. It makes him smile, and where the other might see it as a betrayal of his feelings, the vampire just assumes it's to do with the general euphoria that comes in the afterglow of sex. He's content to lie there against him, even as the other explains that he'd be able to fight him off.
It's a statement that makes the blonde frown, peering up at him quietly for a moment or two. ]
But...
[ It terrifies him for some reason. He knows that Jing Yuan could fight him off, and yet at the same time there's a strange little niggling thought at the back of his head that wonders if he wouldβ and he doesn't understand where that thought is coming from.
He sighs. There's no logic to the thought, so he can't just put it out there. Instead, he settles in a little closer, and shakes his head. ]
Okay, but wouldn't it also be inconvenient if it's like this every time I need to feed?
I think you're just trying to think of excuses not to allow it, Kaveh.
[ he says forwardly, but gently, his voice and expression both warm. one hand smooths through kaveh's hair, strong fingers filtering through it, and perhaps it's a bit too intimate a gesture for them when they're only fucked, and not agreed on anything more, but jing yuan can't help himself. kaveh is so easy to touch. ]
You won't take too much. You didn't this time, did you? Besides..
[ arching a brow, jing yuan glances downward, then back up, gesturing with his free hand. ]
[ Maybe it's too intimate a gesture, but Kaveh finds himself relaxing into it, eyes fluttering contentedly closed. Locked together like this, with the other's hand filtering through his hair, recently fed and fucked, he feels like he could drift to sleep.
(Until a movement reminds him of how full he is, and how fucking good it feels.)
He frowns slightly at Jing Yuan's words. The truth is.. ]
N-no, it's notβ ugh, how do I explain it..
[ His eyes open again, and he looks up at the other man once more. ]
It wasn't inconvenient. It feltβ it feelsβ really good. I'm exhausted, but I feel like I could let you fuck me again and again right now. [ As if to emphasize the words, he rolls his hips against Jing Yuan's knot, humming softly at the pleasure he feels when he does. ] But I don't.. I guess... Is it really okay for this to become part of what's normal between us? You're my best friend, and being what we are it can already be complicated and...
I understand what you're rambling on about, but I don't necessarily agree.
[ though the way kaveh rocks down against his cock and knot makes jing yuan twitch, hissing through his teeth, his grasp on kaveh's hip tightening up. careful now, kaveh, or you'll have him hard again before his knot can even finish going down. ]
Mm.. what's normal between us is up to us. This doesn't need to complicate anything if we don't want it to. [ nevermind how deeply, helplessly in love jing yuan is, but that's his own problem to deal with. ] Besides.. do you think it's possible to go back?
[ to be what they were before this? to forget that they had mindblowing sex, and never have it again? ]
[ He repeats Jing Yuan's words with a thoughtful expression on his face even as the other man twitches and hisses below him, even as fingers tighten on his hip, and damn it's hot, makes him want to do it againβ it's only that same thoughtfulness that makes him pause as he thinks it over.
The problem with what Jing Yuan says is that he's Kaveh, he's never had an uncomplicated relationship of any sort in his life or death...
but at the same time, it's trueβ how is he meant to go back from the best sex he's ever had?
He bites his lip, and shakes his head. ]
...I guess it's probably not.
[ But his expression is still troubled. ]
So... what does that mean for us, Yuan-xiong? I feed from you, we have sex sometimes.. there have to be rules, right?
[ oh he knows kaveh, knows him well enough to know how he overthinks everything, how he complicates things simply by existing, even if it's needless. but jing yuan has always been his gentle voice of reason, his anchor, keeping him still and calm when the waves of the sea of his mind begin to roil and storm. ]
That's exactly what it means, yes. I don't expect anything of you, Kaveh.
[ even if he wants it, wants it so badly that it makes his chest tighten up painfully, wants to keep kaveh for his own, to claim and mate him, to curl up beside him every night, and kiss him awake every morning. but he'll keep that information close to the vest. he must. ]
I won't hold you down. Things will be as they've always been, only with.. a few additions.
[ feeding, and sex. ]
If you have any ground rules you would like to lay, I'm listening.
[ Kaveh is quiet for a moment, considering the other's words. Jing Yuan says he doesn't expect anything of him, but what does that mean exactly? Kaveh thinks he should ask, but there's something weighted about the words that his brain shies away from, afraid, pushing him in a different direction.
And so, as for an arrangement...
Does he have any ground rules? It seems dangerous, he thinks, to have something like this without having any in place, and yet he trusts Jing Yuan enough that none of them come to mind immediately.
His teeth worry at his lower lip even as he dips back in closer to the other, not wanting his friend to see the concern being written all over his face even as they come to a perfectly reasonable agreement.
Instead of rules, he surfaces from the troubled corners of his mind with questions. ]
..How often? And.. are there times that you can't? Like full moon, or your rut...
[ jing yuan sighs softly. he doesn't need to see kaveh's face to understand that he's concerned, it's clear in everything he does, in his body language and his tone of voice. he's overthinking in that head of his, already complicating this far more than he needs to, which is expected, of course, but also concerning, and certainly tiring.
but jing yuan is a patient man, patient, and loving. they'll get through this. ]
As I said, things will be as they've always been, which.. yes, means I'll be unavailable during those times.
[ it's not that he wouldn't want to spend them with kaveh, but the possibility of laying a claiming bite while he's in the haze of his rut is just.. too dangerous. it may not affect kaveh, he's a vampire, but it will certainly affect jing yuan. he can't take that risk. he's already lost two mates in his lifetime, he can't risk his heart losing a third he never had to begin with. ]
Other than that, as often or as rarely as we like. I don't want to write a calendar, but you'll need to feed, and if things go a certain way.. well. I'm amenable. That aside, I don't plan to interfere in your life. If either of us decides that we need to stop being intimate - [ he won't ] - then we'll stop. We respect each other, and communicate.
[ Face hidden or no, Jing Yuan will feel the heat of Kaveh's face when the more pointed part of his comment is made. Respect is something he has innately for the other man, and he would never do anything to disrespect him, but communication... mm. For Kaveh, that part is difficult. Has always been difficult. Will likely always be difficult.
But he nods, swallowing against the anxiety that builds up so easily in his chest. ]
Ideally... In an ideal situation, I would feed once a week. [ It's a difficult admission to make. Once per week is more often than he ever feeds, and Jing Yuan is no doubt more than aware of that. But he's honest about it anyway, even as he keeps his face pressed into the other's shoulder. ] If I'm eating regularly, I can just go without at a full moonβ
or I can hunt, I guess. [ He adds that last part in a hurry, reasonably sure that Jing Yuan will scold him again if he makes plans that involve deliberately choosing not to eat, regardless of the reason. ] I'll need to fill my emergency supply again too just in case, so...
[ He bites his lower lip, still worrying. So much about this idea is amazing, but he can't help but wonder if he's using the other man too readily. They're meant to be friends, Jing Yuan shouldn't feel like he has to do this for him just because he's too uncomfortable to go hunting... ]
Is that too often? I don't know how easily your blood replenishes itself..
[ oh yes, he knows all too well just how terrible kaveh is at communication. he's such a smart man, jing yuan can't understand how he doesn't see the value in communicating with the people you're close with. sometimes being honest is hard, but arguments and assumptions are even harder still, and hurtful, to boot - jing yuan has always been an advocate of proper, respectful communication.
kaveh is a reasonable man most of the time, but this is something they've always butted heads with. ]
Once a week is fine. We can find alternate sources for working around the full moon. You don't need to hunt, just give me some time to think.
[ there's surely a way to be found, once jing yuan's mind isn't addled by the tight warmth all around his cock. volunteers. lifting from hospitals and blood banks. jing yuan has connections he can use. with a soft exhale, he smooths his hand over kaveh's hair. ]
I care about you. It hurts me to see you suffering. Please let me help.
[ He doesn't need to hunt, Jing Yuan says. He'll think of something else. Kaveh thinks he feels his slumbering heart flutter in his chest.
(Possible, considering he's just fed. But improbable.)
He pulls back slightly, looks up at the werewolf as he continues to talk, as he asks Kaveh to let him help even as his hand smooths through blonde hair. He's seen that look on the other's face before... mostly when his pack is threatened by hunters drawing too near their den, but also when Kaveh himself has made stupid choices, not had anything to drink for far too long.
Like this time.
So, maybe it's blurring the lines a little when they're already impossibly and dangerously thin right now, but Kaveh leans in, closes the space between them and fits his mouth to Jing Yuan's, soft and sweet. It's an agreement. A promiseβ one that, this time, he's determined not to break. ]
[ kaveh doesn't answer directly, which is.. a little bit worrying, but the kiss he offers is enough to smooth it over immediately, to make jing yuan's chest tighten up with warmth and yearning. it might be blurring the lines indeed, but jing yuan can't resist kaveh's affections, he's not strong enough. he's too deeply, hopelessly in love.
so he hums softly into kaveh's mouth, his fingers slipping back into his soft hair to cradle the back of his head, his lips immediately parting, deepening the kiss, tasting him. it's comforting, knowing that kaveh will do his best, that he can feel the commitment in the kiss - the assenting surrender to jing yuan's will to help him. jing yuan's free arm coils around kaveh's waist, holding him against his body, his hand splaying against the small of his back.
his heart aches. if only things could be like this always. if only he could sweep kaveh away to his home to protect him, to love him every day, as he longs to do.
when the kiss breaks, jing yuan nudges their noses together with a soft hum, his mouth curving into a warm smile, his thumb following the curve of kaveh's ear. his golden eyes are hooded, his expression so desperately warm and soft, so affectionate, so gentle. ]
[ A contented smile forms on Kaveh's lips in response to the way Jing Yuan returns the kiss, hums against his mouth as it deepens, coils an arm around him to hold him close. Wrapping himself up with the other like this is something he's never quite thought about, and yet he's never felt quite so at ease, even as he's still achingly full, fighting against the urge to roll his hips down in the search for yet more pleasure.
He'll do his best. He doesn't want the other man to have to worry about him anymore. And if he can do that without having to hunt, then it's all the better. Right?
He nudges his nose against Jing Yuan's in return, admiring the hooded, affectionate look on his face. Kaveh is blind to what it really means, but it's enough to know that he's loved, that he's cared forβ ]
I don't suppose I get a reward for being obedient?
[ It's a soft mumble against the curve of Jing Yuan's lips, a playful chuckle at the corners of his voice. Somehow, he's still ready for more. The feeding, he supposes, in conjunction with it being near to the full moon... ]
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But he can certainly share his own thoughts, just as he can feel the heat of Jing Yuan's reaction to them. His hair is yanked, and the moan on his lips is dark and heated, his blood-awakened pulse thrumming hard in response to the sensation of the other plunging deep into him. His lips part, trembling around the words as he mindlessly demands more.
He reaches between them to take his own cock in hand, stroking in the same rhythm as the thrusts that rock his whole body, and his free hand moves to curl into Jing Yuan's hair in turn, holding him close as he bites and sucks and marksβ
and Kaveh has to bite back the urge to beg for still more bites, to tell Jing Yuan to give him something to brag about, so instead he closes his eyes, groans into the dim of his room, panting and breathing and trying to find the right thing to say. ]
Harder, fuck me harder, Iβ fuck I'm close againβ
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being let into kaveh's thoughts however, especially right now, is a wild, incredible experience - feeling his pleasure, his desire and need.. it only fuels jing yuan's libido, making him hunger for more and more.
harder, kaveh says, and jing yuan obliges, his abdomen flexing as he fucks him harder and faster, plunging brutally deep with every thrust of his hips. as he grows closer to the edge, jing yuan's knot swells slowly again, catching on kaveh's rim until every thrust gets more and more difficult to push in and pull out of, his body attempting to lock them together. this time, he won't pull out. kaveh wanted this, asked for this, and jing yuan wants to give it to him. ]
Gods, Kaveh, Kaveh, I'm gonna cum, baby, I can't - fuck -
[ this time, it's jing yuan who tumbles first. with a low, animal growl, jing yuan's ears pin back, his body shuddering as his hips jerk forward, the headboard slamming the wall. he spills, hot and copious into kaveh, filling him up completely with wave after wave of sticky spend, his knot catching at last, locking him inside as his cock twitches helplessly, pumping kaveh full. ]
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(why does he like that so much?)
βand he all but howls with pleasure as the other's knot presses into him, finally locking the two of them together as the other's cum fills and fills and fills, leaving him breathlessly wailing as his own orgasm claims him in answer. He grabs Jing Yuan by the hair, pulling him harshly into a desperate, needy kiss as his own seed spills over his hand and abdomen, the blonde pumping himself a few more times to milk the last of it before he lets go.
He doesn't think he can talk just yet, his breath and voice little more than gasps and whimpers, so he lets his brain continue to do the work for him. ]
Will you call me baby again? [ Except his thoughts betray him and let that slip, leaving him laughing breathlessly against Jing Yuan's lips. ] Mm.. didn't mean to say that..
[ He meant it, though. ]
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then kaveh's words drift through his mind again, and jing yuan gives a breathless laugh, soft and sweet, nudging their noses together. ]
I'll give you anything you want, baby.
[ he murmurs against kaveh's lips, his upper arms trembling with the effort of holding himself up. as much as he wants to rest against kaveh, he doesn't want to crush him, so jing yuan summons the last of his strength to roll them, pulling kaveh over top of him, their bodies still joined, still tied. both hands skim kaveh's back, and he tips his chin upward to meet his kisses, humming low and rough against kaveh's lips. ]
That was.. amazing. You're amazing.
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To the praise, he can only shake his head, laugh soft and sweet against the other's mouth as a warm flush spreads over his cheeks, pleased by the words even if he doesn't believe them. ]
Mm, nothing compared to you. You just... I.. it's never felt this way for me before.
[ Deep words, perhaps deeper than Kaveh even realizes he's speaking right now, fucked out and content as he is. He nuzzles his nose against Jing Yuan's, humming lowly to himself. ]
I really didn't take too much? I didn't realize how hungry I was.
[ He pauses, then, and has the grace to look ashamed as he breaks the kiss. ]
..Sorry.
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Mmm.. I'm glad it was good for you.
[ he murmurs after a moment, though when kaveh pulls back to apologize, looking sheepish, jing yuan sighs and shakes his head. ]
Sorry for drinking from me? Don't be. You should be sorry for starving yourself in the first place.
[ one hand lifts, and jing yuan sifts his fingers through kaveh's hair, his expression softening with concern. his voice drops to something quieter. ]
You can't keep doing this..
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I know. [ His voice is muffled against the skin. ] I just hate it.
[ And he knows that Jing Yuan knows it already, knows that he hates drinking from people, hates tampering with their memories until all they remember is the sex, how he lives in fear that he'll make the same mistake his creator made in drinking too far and too deepβ And he wouldn't let himself kill someone, so would he make the next mistake too and share his blood, create a childe whose very presence frightened him and wracked him with guilt? Would he flee, and leave that fledgling alone and scared, the same wayβ
He forces the thoughts out of his head, pressing in closer, letting his eyes close again, and when he speaks, it's to change the topic: ]
Werewolves are really big.
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Yes, we are. Please don't change the subject.
[ jing yuan sighs, his fingers slipping through kaveh's hair, free arm encircling his waist tightly. ]
I know you're afraid, Kaveh, but the more you starve yourself, the more likely the chance that you will do something you'll regret.
[ a starved vampire is a crazed vampire, more likely to accidentally kill, more likely to take too much. jing yuan holds him closely, and his words might be forward and stern, but his voice is soft. ]
Next time, just come to me.
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(But surely all he'd have to do is set one foot wrong and that care would disappear, would leave him alone again...)
He's not sure what he's going to say next, can't quite find the right words, but then Jing Yuan tells him, in that same soft voice, to come to him, and the vampire's eyes widen, Kaveh pushing himself a little more upright so he can look down at the otherβ
the movement though causes a jolt of pleasure where they're still tied together, and he groans instead of speaks, eyes closed and teeth pressing softly into his lip. ]
Mmn. Oh, fuck. Feelsβ sorry, not trying to change the subject, just... mm. Distracted.
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[ kaveh isn't used to being knotted, it would seem, which bolsters jing yuan's pride a little. he's never fucked a werewolf, jing yuan was the first and only. it's foolish, he has no claim over kaveh, yet the idea still makes him happy. ]
We'll have to keep close for a little while longer.
[ how long the knot lasts is up to jing yuan's body, after all, it could be a few minutes, or the better part of an hour, and forcing it out would do damage to the both of them. still, the tug of kaveh's rim around his knot makes jing yuan's breath hitch, his hands sliding down to kaveh's hips, holding lightly. ]
Are you feeling better?
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Yeah... yeah, I am. Just... really horny.
[ The proof is in the way he's still half-hard against both of their abdomens despite having orgasmed twice already. ]
Drinking your blood right after a full moon might not be the best idea.
[ Or is it, his brain wonders, exactly the best kind of idea? He doesn't say as much though, just lowers his head back down to Jing Yuan's shoulder, resting against him in silence for a moment or two before he starts to speak again. ]
Anyway I was gonna say that I'm not just going to drink from you whenever I'm hungry. It would put you at risk.
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I see that. I suppose you're right..
[ drinking from him during or near to a full moon is likely to bring with it all of the things that come with it - aggression and need, the instinct to mate, everything that jing yuan needs to hide himself away for. it's a lot to deal with, jing yuan can still remember his first full moons, how difficult it was to contend with, how intense it felt, and kaveh is now getting a little taste of it.
when kaveh leans in close again, jing yuan's arms slip around him, holding loosely at his waist as he enjoys the warm weight of kaveh against his chest. his tail thumps against the bed, betraying him. ]
Kaveh. I mean no offense, but I can fight you off easily should you attempt to take too much. You wouldn't be putting me at risk.
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It's a statement that makes the blonde frown, peering up at him quietly for a moment or two. ]
But...
[ It terrifies him for some reason. He knows that Jing Yuan could fight him off, and yet at the same time there's a strange little niggling thought at the back of his head that wonders if he wouldβ and he doesn't understand where that thought is coming from.
He sighs. There's no logic to the thought, so he can't just put it out there. Instead, he settles in a little closer, and shakes his head. ]
Okay, but wouldn't it also be inconvenient if it's like this every time I need to feed?
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[ he says forwardly, but gently, his voice and expression both warm. one hand smooths through kaveh's hair, strong fingers filtering through it, and perhaps it's a bit too intimate a gesture for them when they're only fucked, and not agreed on anything more, but jing yuan can't help himself. kaveh is so easy to touch. ]
You won't take too much. You didn't this time, did you? Besides..
[ arching a brow, jing yuan glances downward, then back up, gesturing with his free hand. ]
.. was this inconvenient to you?
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(Until a movement reminds him of how full he is, and how fucking good it feels.)
He frowns slightly at Jing Yuan's words. The truth is.. ]
N-no, it's notβ ugh, how do I explain it..
[ His eyes open again, and he looks up at the other man once more. ]
It wasn't inconvenient. It feltβ it feelsβ really good. I'm exhausted, but I feel like I could let you fuck me again and again right now. [ As if to emphasize the words, he rolls his hips against Jing Yuan's knot, humming softly at the pleasure he feels when he does. ] But I don't.. I guess... Is it really okay for this to become part of what's normal between us? You're my best friend, and being what we are it can already be complicated and...
[ He sighs. He knows he's starting to ramble. ]
You get what I mean.
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I understand what you're rambling on about, but I don't necessarily agree.
[ though the way kaveh rocks down against his cock and knot makes jing yuan twitch, hissing through his teeth, his grasp on kaveh's hip tightening up. careful now, kaveh, or you'll have him hard again before his knot can even finish going down. ]
Mm.. what's normal between us is up to us. This doesn't need to complicate anything if we don't want it to. [ nevermind how deeply, helplessly in love jing yuan is, but that's his own problem to deal with. ] Besides.. do you think it's possible to go back?
[ to be what they were before this? to forget that they had mindblowing sex, and never have it again? ]
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[ He repeats Jing Yuan's words with a thoughtful expression on his face even as the other man twitches and hisses below him, even as fingers tighten on his hip, and damn it's hot, makes him want to do it againβ it's only that same thoughtfulness that makes him pause as he thinks it over.
The problem with what Jing Yuan says is that he's Kaveh, he's never had an uncomplicated relationship of any sort in his life or death...
but at the same time, it's trueβ how is he meant to go back from the best sex he's ever had?
He bites his lip, and shakes his head. ]
...I guess it's probably not.
[ But his expression is still troubled. ]
So... what does that mean for us, Yuan-xiong? I feed from you, we have sex sometimes.. there have to be rules, right?
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That's exactly what it means, yes. I don't expect anything of you, Kaveh.
[ even if he wants it, wants it so badly that it makes his chest tighten up painfully, wants to keep kaveh for his own, to claim and mate him, to curl up beside him every night, and kiss him awake every morning. but he'll keep that information close to the vest. he must. ]
I won't hold you down. Things will be as they've always been, only with.. a few additions.
[ feeding, and sex. ]
If you have any ground rules you would like to lay, I'm listening.
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And so, as for an arrangement...
Does he have any ground rules? It seems dangerous, he thinks, to have something like this without having any in place, and yet he trusts Jing Yuan enough that none of them come to mind immediately.
His teeth worry at his lower lip even as he dips back in closer to the other, not wanting his friend to see the concern being written all over his face even as they come to a perfectly reasonable agreement.
Instead of rules, he surfaces from the troubled corners of his mind with questions. ]
..How often? And.. are there times that you can't? Like full moon, or your rut...
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but jing yuan is a patient man, patient, and loving. they'll get through this. ]
As I said, things will be as they've always been, which.. yes, means I'll be unavailable during those times.
[ it's not that he wouldn't want to spend them with kaveh, but the possibility of laying a claiming bite while he's in the haze of his rut is just.. too dangerous. it may not affect kaveh, he's a vampire, but it will certainly affect jing yuan. he can't take that risk. he's already lost two mates in his lifetime, he can't risk his heart losing a third he never had to begin with. ]
Other than that, as often or as rarely as we like. I don't want to write a calendar, but you'll need to feed, and if things go a certain way.. well. I'm amenable. That aside, I don't plan to interfere in your life. If either of us decides that we need to stop being intimate - [ he won't ] - then we'll stop. We respect each other, and communicate.
[ that last word is certainly pointed. ]
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But he nods, swallowing against the anxiety that builds up so easily in his chest. ]
Ideally... In an ideal situation, I would feed once a week. [ It's a difficult admission to make. Once per week is more often than he ever feeds, and Jing Yuan is no doubt more than aware of that. But he's honest about it anyway, even as he keeps his face pressed into the other's shoulder. ] If I'm eating regularly, I can just go without at a full moonβ
or I can hunt, I guess. [ He adds that last part in a hurry, reasonably sure that Jing Yuan will scold him again if he makes plans that involve deliberately choosing not to eat, regardless of the reason. ] I'll need to fill my emergency supply again too just in case, so...
[ He bites his lower lip, still worrying. So much about this idea is amazing, but he can't help but wonder if he's using the other man too readily. They're meant to be friends, Jing Yuan shouldn't feel like he has to do this for him just because he's too uncomfortable to go hunting... ]
Is that too often? I don't know how easily your blood replenishes itself..
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kaveh is a reasonable man most of the time, but this is something they've always butted heads with. ]
Once a week is fine. We can find alternate sources for working around the full moon. You don't need to hunt, just give me some time to think.
[ there's surely a way to be found, once jing yuan's mind isn't addled by the tight warmth all around his cock. volunteers. lifting from hospitals and blood banks. jing yuan has connections he can use. with a soft exhale, he smooths his hand over kaveh's hair. ]
I care about you. It hurts me to see you suffering. Please let me help.
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(Possible, considering he's just fed. But improbable.)
He pulls back slightly, looks up at the werewolf as he continues to talk, as he asks Kaveh to let him help even as his hand smooths through blonde hair. He's seen that look on the other's face before... mostly when his pack is threatened by hunters drawing too near their den, but also when Kaveh himself has made stupid choices, not had anything to drink for far too long.
Like this time.
So, maybe it's blurring the lines a little when they're already impossibly and dangerously thin right now, but Kaveh leans in, closes the space between them and fits his mouth to Jing Yuan's, soft and sweet. It's an agreement. A promiseβ one that, this time, he's determined not to break. ]
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so he hums softly into kaveh's mouth, his fingers slipping back into his soft hair to cradle the back of his head, his lips immediately parting, deepening the kiss, tasting him. it's comforting, knowing that kaveh will do his best, that he can feel the commitment in the kiss - the assenting surrender to jing yuan's will to help him. jing yuan's free arm coils around kaveh's waist, holding him against his body, his hand splaying against the small of his back.
his heart aches. if only things could be like this always. if only he could sweep kaveh away to his home to protect him, to love him every day, as he longs to do.
when the kiss breaks, jing yuan nudges their noses together with a soft hum, his mouth curving into a warm smile, his thumb following the curve of kaveh's ear. his golden eyes are hooded, his expression so desperately warm and soft, so affectionate, so gentle. ]
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He'll do his best. He doesn't want the other man to have to worry about him anymore. And if he can do that without having to hunt, then it's all the better. Right?
He nudges his nose against Jing Yuan's in return, admiring the hooded, affectionate look on his face. Kaveh is blind to what it really means, but it's enough to know that he's loved, that he's cared forβ ]
I don't suppose I get a reward for being obedient?
[ It's a soft mumble against the curve of Jing Yuan's lips, a playful chuckle at the corners of his voice. Somehow, he's still ready for more. The feeding, he supposes, in conjunction with it being near to the full moon... ]
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