[ A beautiful, genuine smile comes across Pharos's lips when Mister E tells him that he's perfection. He's certainly never thought of himself that way, and he's never believed in it when other viewers have told him as much in the past. But when Mister E says it, Kaveh knows he can believe that the other means it, isn't only saying it to get more out of him.
Somehow, that's better than believing it for himself.
There's a fresh dust of red splashed across his cheeks as he settles back properly into his chair and presses his fingers into his mouth once more, a sigh on his lips as he widens them to accept his own ministrations.
He wants to put on the best possible show he can for the other man. ]
[When Pharos smiles so brightly, Alhaitham drops his head into his hands. Rubs his face as he takes a deep breath. The shift of his hips on his seat is the only thing he does to alleviate his begging, weeping erection. Kaveh's cock glistens in the probable lighting he has set up for his streams, and his mouth runs dry.
'There,' 'I'm yours—'
Would Kaveh laugh at him, or be mortified, if he knew about his sorry state, folded over his desk? Perhaps both. Very likely both.]
user2.718: That's good. You're doing so well. user2.718: You're so beautiful. user2.718: Did you think of me like this? user2.718: Show me where you want me to touch you next.
[ He has no way of knowing, of course, the images on Alhaitham's mind. All he can do is read what user2.718 says, do his best to please him and show him all the things he wants to see— he wants him to feel good, to get out of this all the things that he gives Kaveh just by being here in this chat, talking to him and praising him and—
He pulls his fingers free again. ]
Mm... of course, Mister E. I... I think of you a lot, like this.
[ Even that night, when he was with Alhaitham. ]
Next, I...
[ He bites his lower lip, considering for a moment taking his weeping, straining cock in hand. But he doesn't for now; instead, he trails saliva-slick fingers down his own front, lifting his hips so he can tease them over his own hole. ]
[He supposes he should feel jealous, even if technically, Kaveh had been thinking of him even if he wasn't aware of it. Even in Alhaitham's arms, whimpering a 'E' in such a sweet voice, he was thinking of Alhaitham himself in such a roundabout way. Alhaitham doesn't really know what to think, and is intrigued about how he comes across here, and how he comes across in person.
How odd, that the two elicit such a different response. And yet Alhaitham can't see the difference. The moment he compliments Kaveh he gets daggers thrown his way. The moment he does it as user2.718 he has Kaveh whimpering and asking for more, smiling dazzlingly.
He sighs, shakes his trousers off, unplugs his laptop from the stand and takes it and himself to the bed. The bed that he wishes still smelled like Kaveh.]
user2.718: Is that what you want? user2.718: Do you want me inside you? user2.718: You'll be good and show me, right?
[ The words come through and Kaveh can do little more than nod. Yes, this is what he wants, what he wanted before they even started this tonight. He's thought about Mister E so much lately, how he might touch him, letting his imagination run into overdrive with the thoughts and the desperation for someone's affection.
With permission of a sort granted— yes, he can be good, he'll show his Mister E just how good he can be— he slips a finger into himself, spreading his legs a little wider in the process. It's not exactly the most comfortable of seating arrangements, but it gives his viewer the best possible view. ]
I do. I want more of you than this, too, but... this is enough for now. I'll take whatever of you you wanna give me.
[ If only it could be everything.
...Archons, he's truly in trouble with this man. ]
[Beautiful Pharos. Gorgeous, stunning Kaveh. Alhaitham had barely even considered how attractive he was in person aside from the objective acknowledgement of his appeal when they first met. Yes, there are plenty of beautiful people around, but it's not something that Alhaitham would act on and find interest in. A genetic lottery often gave someone the right for attention, anyway.
And yet, the ruffled feathers that scrunched his nose, the sharpness of his mouth, the red-blooded passion of his answers as he went back and forth with his jabs, as much as he delivers himself to delight, make him absolutely surrendered to the beauty that Kaveh holds.]
user2.718: i want to see your pleasure user2.718: i'd make it good for you user2.718: make it feel good
[Alhaitham sighs, thrusts into his grasp. Like he's the one penetrating Pharos. Adding a bit to the fantasy of holding the blonde in his arms, of whispering filth in his ear.]
[ He sighs in content as he keeps fucking himself open, adding a second finger and then a third, spreading himself wide as if waiting for the other to take him, panting and groaning softly as his hips arch up into his own touches. His eyes flutter, and he reads over the chat more thoroughly, noting the way Mister E's words have changed, punctuation and typography having disappeared in favor of his pleasure. He licks his lips, breathing out a soft sigh. ]
It's only for you, Mister E, did you know that? I don't— there's no one else I'm fucking, I'm only ever like this for you—
[ It sounds, perhaps, like a streamer making false platitudes to one of many private viewers. But it's the (sad) truth, Kaveh's honesty shining through despite himself. ]
Nn... you said you'll only use your fingers today? I can't... mm, can't have more of you? Please?
user2.718: i know user2.718: i don't do this with anyone either user2.718: you're being so good for me user2.718: only fingers today dear user2.718: can you do it?
[Is that too much? Too weird? Too affectionate? It's too late, anyway. Alhaitham at this point does not care, he's typing with one hand, and all he wants is to say yes, to take him fully, to ride the fantasy of him being fucked while leaning back against him.
But really, he thinks Kaveh needs this, a bit of worship, a bit of prioritization. He just admitted to feeling bad about getting worked up with Alhaitham, whilst fantasizing with... Alhaitham. It'd be silly if he wasn't so upset about it. So this is for Pharos, for Kaveh, for his devotion even if his heart is still tangled messily. For better or worse, Alhaitham will help him unwind it.
Seeing him so needy only flushes him to the core, and he looks up at the empty ceiling with a heavy breath to reach for the keyboard once more. His cock looks heavy, tightened by the ring, and Pharos is glowing beautifully with want.]
user2.718: when you're close user2.718: release the ring user2.718: i want to see you
[ Even as Alhaitham is worrying about the tone he's taken, Kaveh's face is heating with a blush. Not only because Mister E has told him that he doesn't do this with anyone else, but because of the affectionate word chosen, as if they're somehow more than just streamer and viewer, the way he so desperately wants for them to be. It's enough to make his fingers pause in their motions, a stutter in his movements before he manages to keep himself going, swallowing hard against the thickness in his throat.
He's so hard it's starting to ache. ]
I will, I...
[ He cuts himself off with a soft moan as his fingers brush over his prostate. It's not particularly easy to do at this angle, but it's enough to send sparks through him, to make his head tilt back slightly as he breathes sharply, seeking to fill his lungs with new air where he feels like he's bound to suffocate on the words and the actions and everything.
His free hand lifts to the ring, closing around it to find the release—
And he pauses, still fucking himself, his eyes seeking out the chat again, then the camera, something soft and pleading in his breath. ]
Will you call me that again? Or.. or something similar, I.. please?
[His teeth ache, knowing exactly how Kaveh's neck feels underneath them, hungering for the pliant skin and elegant muscle once again. His mouth runs dry, and Alhaitham hunches as though he'd be resting his head on Kaveh's shoulder, his headphones picking up on every small gasp, the breaths that seep through the streamer's lips.
And oh, he likes it. He likes being called upon affection, so much that he asks for it again. It's enough to sober him an increment and have him stare at the screen, his mouth gaping, his fingers on his cock stilling, dampened and squeezing to a halt.
His fingers fly over the keyboard.]
user2.718: however you'd like user2.718: honey user2.718: baby user2.718: you're so handsome user2.718: so beautiful user2.718: sugar user2.718: my darling
[ Saying "that's all it takes" would be something of an understatement. As user2.718's messages start coming through in something akin to double time, deft fingers release the ring around him and then move away again to allow the other a good view. He doesn't know exactly what the other plans to say, but he knows that, paired with his fingers, it will be enough—
and then not one but six separate messages come through, naming him affectionately and praising him in turn, and when Kaveh comes it's hard, his hips jerking up and cock twitching as he spills over himself; naked as he is, Mister E will see his muscles tensing and flexing in time with the too-loud cry he makes: ]
Mister E—!
[ before they slacken again as he sinks into the seat, panting hard, dazed eyes re-reading the string of compliments.
He likes them all, but.. ]
Baby. [ His voice is a whisper. ] I think that one's my favorite.
He forgets himself, his erection twitching and weeping, but he's moved to immobility, his eyes fixated on the exposed parts of Pharos that he doesn't tend to see, that he didn't get to look at when they were both physically together.
And the knowledge that yes, that was the cry he let out before, that night. He cried out for him. He cried out for him. He cried out for him.
This man will be the death of him. He knows this.
This man hates him.
Alhaitham slips a hand under the length of his bangs to rub at his eye, a headache from both giving himself blue balls and the whole complexity of this situation plummeting him down.
Still, he's beautiful, and Kaveh—Pharos—talks about how he likes to be called 'baby'.]
user2.718: I'll call you that, then. user2.718: You were so good for me, baby. user2.718: I feel so lucky to have found you.
[ It takes him a little while to recover from the strength of his orgasm, Kaveh's eyes closing under his mask as he breathes in and out, trying to steady his breath. And when they open again as he removes his fingers from himself, reaches for a tissue to clean up, user2.718 is typing normally once more, calling him "baby" again and telling him—
oh.
Archons help him, he's falling too fast for this man, this man he doesn't even know past words and kindness on a screen, and...
He swallows again, this time against a lump of emotion, and manages a small smile in the direction of his camera. Hopefully he looks worn out rather than emotional. ]
That was amazing, Mister E. Was it good for you too?
[ And then, wonderingly, now that he's earned himself a nickname: ]
Should I keep calling you Mister E? Or is there something else you'd prefer?
user2.718: Of course. user2.718: It's always good with you.
[It was good, despite him not being able to finish. The lack of a climax doesn't necessarily mean the session wasn't good. Alhaitham is too rational to think otherwise.
He watches him carefully, at the relaxed state of his neck, how he swallows hard over that last message. Too much?
Alhaitham smiles.]
user2.718: If you want to keep to the theme you can call me Euler. user2.718: But as for any nicknames, I will defer to you.
[ He feels the name out, smiles as he says it. He always knew Mister E would understand his private joke, but to hear him say the name makes him almost as proud as the other's statement that it's always good with him.
Besides, it might be easier to cry out than a single letter.
Kaveh bites at his lower lip, worrying at it for a moment or two before he looks back up at the camera, considering. ]
Then... Euler, if it's okay with you, I'd like to make this more of a normal thing. Private streams, I mean. I'll still do my regular streams too but.. I enjoy talking with you, and spending time with you..
[Oh. He wants to do this more often? Making this a regular thing sounds like wonders to Alhaitham, it could mean an easier way of keeping in touch with Kaveh even if he avoids him in campus. And yet he can't help but feel like this may be a bit too much.
Except.]
user2.718: I'd like that. user2.718: I'd like that a lot. user2.718: But I have some conditions. user2.718: If we're making it a regular thing, I'd like to be able to tip you. user2.718: You told me you don't have a lot of time, and I don't think it would be good for you if I took it away without some return from it. user2.718: Not that this isn't rewarding for me, or any of us. It is. user2.718: I believe your mod would also agree.
[ There's a moment of silence where no doubt Alhaitham sees the self-doubt and displeasure creep over Kaveh's face. user2.718 wants to pay him for his time? Is this just transactional after all? As always, he's placed too much importance on this, built it up into something it's not, and Mister E— it's not his fault, he was just getting carried away with a streamer's attention and—
(Oh god was Alhaitham right?)
But then the other keeps typing, explains his reasoning, and Kaveh forgets that he's supposed to be upset, his expression softening as he reads.
It's not like it sounded, it's just...
He bites his lip. ]
Euler, you..
[ There's a moment of silence, conflicted eyes peering into the camera before he finally nods. ]
[Ah, of course he'd be conflicted. He already felt pitiful back at the bar for thinking that Mister E, now Euler, was a paying customer. One of his viewers.
Alhaitham's heart aches.]
user2.718: It's for your safety and well-being, Pharos. user2.718: Nothing else. user2.718: I promise.
[ He's quiet for a moment longer, but then he nods again. ]
Okay. I trust you, and.. and I wanna see you more often, so. I accept. Next time, I'll make sure the tip jar is set up when we start. Okay?
[ And he smiles. No matter how unsure he feels about this on one level, he really does believe what Euler says on the other, trusts that he is looking out for his best interests. ]
[Alhaitham sighs. He knows this is necessary because if it comes out that Kaveh is seeing one of his viewers on the regular for free, people will probably demand the same. If Euler is seen as a VIP, then all the better.
He knows it's tricky, they're walking on weird, crackling ice, that they don't know if it's thin or not.]
user2.718: Don't look like that. user2.718: It makes me want to take care of you.
[ And despite the worries, he finds that his smile only grows more as he leans into the camera, blows it a sweet, brief kiss. ]
Thank you, Euler. I'm looking forward to next time too.
[ And with another smile, he closes the stream. It's not until the stream indicator disappears that he leans forward with a groan, pressing his forehead into his hands.
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Somehow, that's better than believing it for himself.
There's a fresh dust of red splashed across his cheeks as he settles back properly into his chair and presses his fingers into his mouth once more, a sigh on his lips as he widens them to accept his own ministrations.
He wants to put on the best possible show he can for the other man. ]
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'There,' 'I'm yours—'
Would Kaveh laugh at him, or be mortified, if he knew about his sorry state, folded over his desk? Perhaps both. Very likely both.]
user2.718: That's good. You're doing so well.
user2.718: You're so beautiful.
user2.718: Did you think of me like this?
user2.718: Show me where you want me to touch you next.
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He pulls his fingers free again. ]
Mm... of course, Mister E. I... I think of you a lot, like this.
[ Even that night, when he was with Alhaitham. ]
Next, I...
[ He bites his lower lip, considering for a moment taking his weeping, straining cock in hand. But he doesn't for now; instead, he trails saliva-slick fingers down his own front, lifting his hips so he can tease them over his own hole. ]
Will you?
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How odd, that the two elicit such a different response. And yet Alhaitham can't see the difference. The moment he compliments Kaveh he gets daggers thrown his way. The moment he does it as user2.718 he has Kaveh whimpering and asking for more, smiling dazzlingly.
He sighs, shakes his trousers off, unplugs his laptop from the stand and takes it and himself to the bed. The bed that he wishes still smelled like Kaveh.]
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With permission of a sort granted— yes, he can be good, he'll show his Mister E just how good he can be— he slips a finger into himself, spreading his legs a little wider in the process. It's not exactly the most comfortable of seating arrangements, but it gives his viewer the best possible view. ]
I do. I want more of you than this, too, but... this is enough for now. I'll take whatever of you you wanna give me.
[ If only it could be everything.
...Archons, he's truly in trouble with this man. ]
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And yet, the ruffled feathers that scrunched his nose, the sharpness of his mouth, the red-blooded passion of his answers as he went back and forth with his jabs, as much as he delivers himself to delight, make him absolutely surrendered to the beauty that Kaveh holds.]
[Alhaitham sighs, thrusts into his grasp. Like he's the one penetrating Pharos. Adding a bit to the fantasy of holding the blonde in his arms, of whispering filth in his ear.]
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[ He sighs in content as he keeps fucking himself open, adding a second finger and then a third, spreading himself wide as if waiting for the other to take him, panting and groaning softly as his hips arch up into his own touches. His eyes flutter, and he reads over the chat more thoroughly, noting the way Mister E's words have changed, punctuation and typography having disappeared in favor of his pleasure. He licks his lips, breathing out a soft sigh. ]
It's only for you, Mister E, did you know that? I don't— there's no one else I'm fucking, I'm only ever like this for you—
[ It sounds, perhaps, like a streamer making false platitudes to one of many private viewers. But it's the (sad) truth, Kaveh's honesty shining through despite himself. ]
Nn... you said you'll only use your fingers today? I can't... mm, can't have more of you? Please?
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[Is that too much? Too weird? Too affectionate? It's too late, anyway. Alhaitham at this point does not care, he's typing with one hand, and all he wants is to say yes, to take him fully, to ride the fantasy of him being fucked while leaning back against him.
But really, he thinks Kaveh needs this, a bit of worship, a bit of prioritization. He just admitted to feeling bad about getting worked up with Alhaitham, whilst fantasizing with... Alhaitham. It'd be silly if he wasn't so upset about it. So this is for Pharos, for Kaveh, for his devotion even if his heart is still tangled messily. For better or worse, Alhaitham will help him unwind it.
Seeing him so needy only flushes him to the core, and he looks up at the empty ceiling with a heavy breath to reach for the keyboard once more. His cock looks heavy, tightened by the ring, and Pharos is glowing beautifully with want.]
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He's so hard it's starting to ache. ]
I will, I...
[ He cuts himself off with a soft moan as his fingers brush over his prostate. It's not particularly easy to do at this angle, but it's enough to send sparks through him, to make his head tilt back slightly as he breathes sharply, seeking to fill his lungs with new air where he feels like he's bound to suffocate on the words and the actions and everything.
His free hand lifts to the ring, closing around it to find the release—
And he pauses, still fucking himself, his eyes seeking out the chat again, then the camera, something soft and pleading in his breath. ]
Will you call me that again? Or.. or something similar, I.. please?
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And oh, he likes it. He likes being called upon affection, so much that he asks for it again. It's enough to sober him an increment and have him stare at the screen, his mouth gaping, his fingers on his cock stilling, dampened and squeezing to a halt.
His fingers fly over the keyboard.]
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and then not one but six separate messages come through, naming him affectionately and praising him in turn, and when Kaveh comes it's hard, his hips jerking up and cock twitching as he spills over himself; naked as he is, Mister E will see his muscles tensing and flexing in time with the too-loud cry he makes: ]
Mister E—!
[ before they slacken again as he sinks into the seat, panting hard, dazed eyes re-reading the string of compliments.
He likes them all, but.. ]
Baby. [ His voice is a whisper. ] I think that one's my favorite.
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He forgets himself, his erection twitching and weeping, but he's moved to immobility, his eyes fixated on the exposed parts of Pharos that he doesn't tend to see, that he didn't get to look at when they were both physically together.
And the knowledge that yes, that was the cry he let out before, that night. He cried out for him. He cried out for him. He cried out for him.
This man will be the death of him. He knows this.
This man hates him.
Alhaitham slips a hand under the length of his bangs to rub at his eye, a headache from both giving himself blue balls and the whole complexity of this situation plummeting him down.
Still, he's beautiful, and Kaveh—Pharos—talks about how he likes to be called 'baby'.]
[And to make things worse:
He's not lying.]
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oh.
Archons help him, he's falling too fast for this man, this man he doesn't even know past words and kindness on a screen, and...
He swallows again, this time against a lump of emotion, and manages a small smile in the direction of his camera. Hopefully he looks worn out rather than emotional. ]
That was amazing, Mister E. Was it good for you too?
[ And then, wonderingly, now that he's earned himself a nickname: ]
Should I keep calling you Mister E? Or is there something else you'd prefer?
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[It was good, despite him not being able to finish. The lack of a climax doesn't necessarily mean the session wasn't good. Alhaitham is too rational to think otherwise.
He watches him carefully, at the relaxed state of his neck, how he swallows hard over that last message. Too much?
Alhaitham smiles.]
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[ He feels the name out, smiles as he says it. He always knew Mister E would understand his private joke, but to hear him say the name makes him almost as proud as the other's statement that it's always good with him.
Besides, it might be easier to cry out than a single letter.
Kaveh bites at his lower lip, worrying at it for a moment or two before he looks back up at the camera, considering. ]
Then... Euler, if it's okay with you, I'd like to make this more of a normal thing. Private streams, I mean. I'll still do my regular streams too but.. I enjoy talking with you, and spending time with you..
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Except.]
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(Oh god was Alhaitham right?)
But then the other keeps typing, explains his reasoning, and Kaveh forgets that he's supposed to be upset, his expression softening as he reads.
It's not like it sounded, it's just...
He bites his lip. ]
Euler, you..
[ There's a moment of silence, conflicted eyes peering into the camera before he finally nods. ]
...Okay.
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Alhaitham's heart aches.]
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Okay. I trust you, and.. and I wanna see you more often, so. I accept. Next time, I'll make sure the tip jar is set up when we start. Okay?
[ And he smiles. No matter how unsure he feels about this on one level, he really does believe what Euler says on the other, trusts that he is looking out for his best interests. ]
..Thank you.
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He knows it's tricky, they're walking on weird, crackling ice, that they don't know if it's thin or not.]
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I'm okay, I promise. I'm just being selfish. But I understand why you're saying that we should do it this way.
[ There's more than one reason, really. It's a good suggestion, as much as Kaveh wants to hate it. ]
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Thank you, Euler. I'm looking forward to next time too.
[ And with another smile, he closes the stream. It's not until the stream indicator disappears that he leans forward with a groan, pressing his forehead into his hands.
What has he gotten himself into? ]