Not to me! I was enjoying it. I'm not sure about him, he fell asleep first. I'll have to ask him... but honestly, I was really tired from everything that happened yesterday. He'd made tea with chamomile, and between that and the cigarette and the blanket, and then him falling asleep on my shoulder, I was so warm and comfortable that I think I had no chance.
[ There's a pause then as he tilts his head, a thoughtful expression growing on his features. Euler sounds okay, but... ]
It doesn't bother you, right? That I'm getting closer to him, after everything that happened? You were right, he's a better guy than I thought. It's not like that or anything but.. I dunno, I just wanna make sure it's okay.
[He'll grab that comment about the cigarette, save it for later. Because he is genuinely curious about it. But also because apparently Alhaitham had leaned against him in his sleep, and he hadn't realized it.]
As long as you're comfortable, I'd say it's more than fine. If he makes you feel comfortable and safe, then I am only happy to hear it.
[ Euler's words help his guilt relax into nothingness again, and he smiles a little more brightly. He's just about to tell the other that yes, he does feel comfortable and safe, and that he's grateful to him for telling Pharos to take a chance on this guy—
but then Euler asks a question that makes his cheeks heat.
He didn't even realize that he'd mentioned the cigarette. ]
I um. Yeah... when I was calming down last night, I realized I kind of wanted a cigarette. Not to smoke, really, but just.. just for the taste. It reminds me of you. He smokes too, so I asked if I could have one.
Yeah. To help me calm down. To... make me feel like you were there with me.
[ He bites his lip, casts his eyes away from the camera. Even he is aware of how intense that sounds for two people that have met in person all of once, and... ]
[ Not hearing the conflict in Euler's voice at all, Kaveh just smiles, although the awkwardness is still written on his features even as he looks back up at the camera.
Regardless of Euler telling him he doesn't have to apologize, there's something strange about the whole situation... something on which Kaveh can't quite put his finger. ]
It did. It wasn't quite the same but.. it was nice.
I guess I have to kiss you harder for the taste to last longer.
[It slips out. A master of language he is, and he knows the power words hold. And yet, he doesn't manage to rein in the impetuousness of his own heart, tugging at his tongue before he can help it.]
The heat, having on just drained from Kaveh's features, rushes back, turning his cheeks pink all the way to his ears. His hand reaches up, absently playing the the necklace hung from his throat. ]
I'd like that.
[ His voice is a whisper. Even with the camera angled mostly at his face and shoulders, the way that he shifts in his chair will no doubt be visible to the other. ]
[ He bites his lip, finally meeting the camera fully with his gaze once more. ]
I think about it a lot too, and how I wish it were easier to see you more. I'd like it if you could kiss me hard enough that I wouldn't have to miss you... although I think I'd miss you anyway, if I'm honest.
[ There's a pause as he considers what he wants to say next. It's something they haven't talked about since that night, and yet it feels important... ]</small
I hope it wasn't too disappointing. To learn I don't really have experience, I mean.
'I'd miss you even if we were living together,' is what he thinks of saying. Instead, he only says:] I think I'd miss you if we met every day.
[He releases a small sound of surprise. Was Kaveh feeling guilty for not having experience? Was he ashamed? He had only reacted favorably when he finally confessed to him, so Alhaitham shakes his head until he remembers that Kaveh can't hear or see him.]
It wasn't disappointing at all. I believe that I'd rather not have the experience I do have. [Which was a lackluster and disappointing row of experiences, but ones that he dove into exactly as that: experiments.] I am happy that you find me trustworthy to let me know. And… [he clears his throat.] I'm glad you want to share the experience of learning about yourself with me.
[ It's true that at the time, Euler reacted favorably. But Kaveh being Kaveh, there's a part of him that wonders whether the other will have thought more on it later, perhaps changed his mind. Or if he only acted that way in the first place because he didn't want to upset Pharos. So to hear the other express otherwise makes him relax a little.
(Of course, it helps that the other man says what he says about missing him even if they saw each other every day, too. The more they talk, the more wanted and needed Kaveh feels...)
After a moment, though, his brows raise. It's not his place, but he wonders.. ]
Is it.. okay of me to ask why? Why you'd rather not have that experience, I mean. I would've thought it would be a good thing to know what you're doing. I.. I definitely appreciated it, for my part. [ He chuckles, and bites his lip shyly. ] It felt kinda like you were taking care of me. Even when you were punishing me.
[He chuckles back, his voice leaning into something warm, while also teasing at the end.] And I was happy to take care of you and put you in your place.
[He hums to let Kaveh know that he's thinking.] I say I'd rather not have most of my experiences because they were just that: experiences. I wasn't very keen on the acts themselves, but watching and meeting you made me realize that most of what I did before was very lackluster in comparison.
I got some knowledge with them, though. [A shrug.] That I get to apply into practice with you. So, perhaps it's wrong of me to say it.
[ If he was blushing before, he's really pink now, gaze flicking away from the camera in his embarrassment. What Euler says is so intimate and sweet, but also said in such a matter-of-fact way that it has him swallowing, squirming in his chair. ]
N-no, I don't think it's wrong of you to say it, if it's how you feel. But I um.. thank you. For thinking about it that way, too. I know it's kinda selfish of me but.. I like that you did.
[ Kaveh reaches up, fans his face a little. ]
Ah— I wanna kiss you for it. I'm looking forward to seeing you again even more now.
[He chuckles, his eyes crinkling at the edges with fondness.] You look like you want to be held.
[It's said softly. So tenderly. Alhaitham is surprised something like that comes out of his own mouth. The things the man in the next room does to him...]
Why would it be selfish? I said I was happy learning with you.
Mm... I do wanna be held. [ He matches Euler's tenderness effortlessly, a soft smile at the camera as he tilts his head. ] Honestly, just lying there and talking with you, it was...
[ He pauses, biting his lip in thought. It's probably a little too desperate of him to say he liked it more than the sex, so... ]
It was almost as good as when you were fucking me.
[This is his turn to shift on his seat, setting his laptop in a different position on his lap. Suddenly, Alhaitham wants Kaveh back on his lap, and imagines keeping him there, sitting still, kissing slowly, even if he were to penetrate him.]
Oh? [He grins.] Does that mean I need to catch up with myself?
[ He may laugh, but Euler will no doubt hear in his tone that he's thinking about something a little more risqué than their exact conversation... and in fact, when he does open his mouth again it's to reveal that actually, their minds are on the exact same thing. ]
Mm... what about the best of both worlds? I'll sit on your lap again next time.. as long as you keep me close, you can do whatever you want to me.
[ His voice is a purr, and his tongue darts over his lower lip as he thinks about it. ]
Even if what I want is to make you lose your mind?
[He's quick to reply, his voice lowering just enough to grind into some sort of rough grit. Once again, Kaveh shows up to be extremely compatible and falls into sync with his thoughts. It makes him feel less of a perv, and eases the guilt of being so attracted to him that he can't help himself.]
You felt so good on my lap. I think I'll keep you there.
[ The shudder of pleasure that rushes through him is visceral to the point it's almost definitely visible on the camera, and a soft breath hisses out from his lips in response to the near-growl the other makes. ]
Yeah.. even if that's what you want, you can keep me there. I, mm.. I trust you, I know that even if you take me apart, you'll put me back together again— so it's okay if you want to, Euler.
[ A pause as his eyes flick over towards the door, and then Kaveh looks back at the camera. ]
You know.. my roommate said he would be wearing headphones this evening..
[ It's inappropriate, he knows. But isn't this part of what it means to be an adult, living with another adult? ]
[Alhaitham sets the laptop to the side of the bed, shifting once again. The heat of it was starting to seep into his trousers, and his dick was throbbing back to fullness again.
But the mention of Pharos' roommate stops him in his tracks.] Are you afraid he'll hear or...?
[ Kaveh blinks at that— and for a split second, nearly takes offence. But before he can argue, Euler is moving on, making it clear that he was only teasing— that he continues to tease, that whisper tantalizing him and making him squirm a little.
In response to the question, he pouts. ]
Of course I'll behave. I was only naughty because you were making it feel so good— but I can be good. [ A pause, as he shuffles closer. ] Let me prove it to you.
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Not to me! I was enjoying it. I'm not sure about him, he fell asleep first. I'll have to ask him... but honestly, I was really tired from everything that happened yesterday. He'd made tea with chamomile, and between that and the cigarette and the blanket, and then him falling asleep on my shoulder, I was so warm and comfortable that I think I had no chance.
[ There's a pause then as he tilts his head, a thoughtful expression growing on his features. Euler sounds okay, but... ]
It doesn't bother you, right? That I'm getting closer to him, after everything that happened? You were right, he's a better guy than I thought. It's not like that or anything but.. I dunno, I just wanna make sure it's okay.
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[He'll grab that comment about the cigarette, save it for later. Because he is genuinely curious about it. But also because apparently Alhaitham had leaned against him in his sleep, and he hadn't realized it.]
As long as you're comfortable, I'd say it's more than fine. If he makes you feel comfortable and safe, then I am only happy to hear it.
[He tilts his head.] A cigarette, though?
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but then Euler asks a question that makes his cheeks heat.
He didn't even realize that he'd mentioned the cigarette. ]
I um. Yeah... when I was calming down last night, I realized I kind of wanted a cigarette. Not to smoke, really, but just.. just for the taste. It reminds me of you. He smokes too, so I asked if I could have one.
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So… to help you calm down? Or… [to help him feel not so alone?]
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[ He bites his lip, casts his eyes away from the camera. Even he is aware of how intense that sounds for two people that have met in person all of once, and... ]
Sorry. That probably sounds really stupid.
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[He sighs. He was right there. And yet his presence was not what Kaveh really wanted.
He feels a bit conflicted for the first time.]
Did it help?
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Regardless of Euler telling him he doesn't have to apologize, there's something strange about the whole situation... something on which Kaveh can't quite put his finger. ]
It did. It wasn't quite the same but.. it was nice.
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[It slips out. A master of language he is, and he knows the power words hold. And yet, he doesn't manage to rein in the impetuousness of his own heart, tugging at his tongue before he can help it.]
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The heat, having on just drained from Kaveh's features, rushes back, turning his cheeks pink all the way to his ears. His hand reaches up, absently playing the the necklace hung from his throat. ]
I'd like that.
[ His voice is a whisper. Even with the camera angled mostly at his face and shoulders, the way that he shifts in his chair will no doubt be visible to the other. ]
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[It's an earnest question. Alhaitham didn't mean it, but he nonetheless enjoys Kaveh's reaction.] I still think of our meeting.
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[ He bites his lip, finally meeting the camera fully with his gaze once more. ]
I think about it a lot too, and how I wish it were easier to see you more. I'd like it if you could kiss me hard enough that I wouldn't have to miss you... although I think I'd miss you anyway, if I'm honest.
[ There's a pause as he considers what he wants to say next. It's something they haven't talked about since that night, and yet it feels important... ]</small I hope it wasn't too disappointing. To learn I don't really have experience, I mean.
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[He pauses.
'I'd miss you even if we were living together,' is what he thinks of saying. Instead, he only says:] I think I'd miss you if we met every day.
[He releases a small sound of surprise. Was Kaveh feeling guilty for not having experience? Was he ashamed? He had only reacted favorably when he finally confessed to him, so Alhaitham shakes his head until he remembers that Kaveh can't hear or see him.]
It wasn't disappointing at all. I believe that I'd rather not have the experience I do have. [Which was a lackluster and disappointing row of experiences, but ones that he dove into exactly as that: experiments.] I am happy that you find me trustworthy to let me know. And… [he clears his throat.] I'm glad you want to share the experience of learning about yourself with me.
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(Of course, it helps that the other man says what he says about missing him even if they saw each other every day, too. The more they talk, the more wanted and needed Kaveh feels...)
After a moment, though, his brows raise. It's not his place, but he wonders.. ]
Is it.. okay of me to ask why? Why you'd rather not have that experience, I mean. I would've thought it would be a good thing to know what you're doing. I.. I definitely appreciated it, for my part. [ He chuckles, and bites his lip shyly. ] It felt kinda like you were taking care of me. Even when you were punishing me.
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[He chuckles back, his voice leaning into something warm, while also teasing at the end.] And I was happy to take care of you and put you in your place.
[He hums to let Kaveh know that he's thinking.] I say I'd rather not have most of my experiences because they were just that: experiences. I wasn't very keen on the acts themselves, but watching and meeting you made me realize that most of what I did before was very lackluster in comparison.
I got some knowledge with them, though. [A shrug.] That I get to apply into practice with you. So, perhaps it's wrong of me to say it.
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[ If he was blushing before, he's really pink now, gaze flicking away from the camera in his embarrassment. What Euler says is so intimate and sweet, but also said in such a matter-of-fact way that it has him swallowing, squirming in his chair. ]
N-no, I don't think it's wrong of you to say it, if it's how you feel. But I um.. thank you. For thinking about it that way, too. I know it's kinda selfish of me but.. I like that you did.
[ Kaveh reaches up, fans his face a little. ]
Ah— I wanna kiss you for it. I'm looking forward to seeing you again even more now.
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[He chuckles, his eyes crinkling at the edges with fondness.] You look like you want to be held.
[It's said softly. So tenderly. Alhaitham is surprised something like that comes out of his own mouth. The things the man in the next room does to him...]
Why would it be selfish? I said I was happy learning with you.
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[ He pauses, biting his lip in thought. It's probably a little too desperate of him to say he liked it more than the sex, so... ]
It was almost as good as when you were fucking me.
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Oh? [He grins.] Does that mean I need to catch up with myself?
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Mm... what about the best of both worlds? I'll sit on your lap again next time.. as long as you keep me close, you can do whatever you want to me.
[ His voice is a purr, and his tongue darts over his lower lip as he thinks about it. ]
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[He's quick to reply, his voice lowering just enough to grind into some sort of rough grit. Once again, Kaveh shows up to be extremely compatible and falls into sync with his thoughts. It makes him feel less of a perv, and eases the guilt of being so attracted to him that he can't help himself.]
You felt so good on my lap. I think I'll keep you there.
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Yeah.. even if that's what you want, you can keep me there. I, mm.. I trust you, I know that even if you take me apart, you'll put me back together again— so it's okay if you want to, Euler.
[ A pause as his eyes flick over towards the door, and then Kaveh looks back at the camera. ]
You know.. my roommate said he would be wearing headphones this evening..
[ It's inappropriate, he knows. But isn't this part of what it means to be an adult, living with another adult? ]
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But the mention of Pharos' roommate stops him in his tracks.] Are you afraid he'll hear or...?
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No... To the contrary, I think he won't. He told me if I needed him, I'd need to text.
[ He pauses meaningfully, tilting his head and leaning a little closer to the camera. ]
Meaning I'm all yours, Euler.
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[He grins, but it's short-lived. He only releases a whispered:] Baby…
Would you behave in my lap? I don't think you would. You were very naughty the other night.
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In response to the question, he pouts. ]
Of course I'll behave. I was only naughty because you were making it feel so good— but I can be good. [ A pause, as he shuffles closer. ] Let me prove it to you.
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